I am officially depressed!!!!! If you are a regular on this blog you probably might be aware that this is such a rare phenomenon. Generally, I am the kind of a person who doesn’t like getting down, and I can see a silver lining to a cloud however dark the cloud might be. I think this particular cloud is getting too dark for me. Its not as if I have lost hope totally, its just that this time whenever I do find a silver lining, it promptly disappears behind another darker cloud and its getting very demotivating. There is a teensy weensy glimmer of hope out of this mess I’ve landed myself into, but my heart really is not into taking that way. Obviously I can’t be that choosy or finicky at a time like this, but I desperately hope and pray there is another way out. 6 years is a long long time for anyone to want anything and prepare for it to happen. But, fate with its one masterful stroke can mess up your one dream you just can’t bear to see getting shattered. The best part is that you don’t realize that you have been screwed up until much later, when you can’t possibly fight it. I guess today I am just too depressed and exhausted to fight today and am just simply putting it down, getting some of the frustration out. Sometimes, it helps in clearing the mind and helping to decide the next step.& I’ve no idea whether this will help by the end of the post. I also know that I am a fighter, and I won’t give up until and unless I’ve analyzed this in each and every possible way and looked through each and every loophole. Just like that song ”Ain’t no mountain high enough, ain’t no river wild enough…….”. I know that this song was sung in a different context but,i dearly hope that it comes true for me in my context.
Sorry guys for posting such a morose post, but I really couldn’t possibly get anything half decent out. I just had to unload this first.